Good Night Pappa

Jessie and I had a wonderful chat on the phone this evening. She sounded so upbeat and we were talking about allsorts. She was busy making loom bands when I called her but unfortunately I had to go and when I called her back half an hour later, she'd finished 11 more!

We spoke about Friends and her favourite characters (apparently Pheobe), funny adverts, Derby County and so much more. She's so excited about being a season ticket holder and she wanted to know if she gets a new ticket for every match because she has a special book she saves her old match tickets in.

Jessie believes she can already work for DCFC

Then she came up with an idea she wants me to put forward to the club...... She suggested that every Rammie Squad member should be given a disk with all the season's footage on it so that they can look back at it over the years to bring back memories. She also suggested it be personalised to each member by having their name and a photo with Rammie on it, along with Derby County and the season. She believes she can get a job at Derby County!

She then told me something very special. She said next time she sees me she's going to bring her special box with. I asked her what this special box was and she replied by saying it's where she keeps all the things that remind her of me; Photos, letters, etc. Couldn't help for my heart to skip a beat when she said that. Time is supposed to heal but with some things it's just getting harder by the day.

A couple hours later I got this message on my phone reading "Good night pappa, I love you". It's hard to accept sometimes and not many people appreciate just how difficult losing out on 95% of being part of a loved one's daily life is - instead some criticise when you speak out about it. Life isn't always fair but I can still count my blessings for Jessie being such a wonderful girl and at least being able to be part of 5% of her life. That's surely better than nothing at all.